Thursday, October 21, 2010
I feel great. I feel like I had a lobotomy.
Anger really is an unsustainable operating system. I'm lighter now, inside and out, and I feel good. It sounds simple, but it is not. I'm wiping the slate clean. I'm rebooting the 40 year-old hard drive. Guess what? It's amnesty day at the Big Ring Circus. I forgive everyone, even those who don't want it. I even forgive that jackass in California. It's over. Forget it. Sorry I just called you a jackass.
While I'm at it, I would like to take it a step further and apologize to you all. If my words have ever been unfair, or cut too close to home, I'm sorry. If I was a bad listener, forgive me. I am not in charge of the mid-term elections, the weather, the war in Afghanistan, or anything else at all. It's just me and my thoughts in here, in this head, so I'm learning to keep myself better company on the cold, dark nights when the bad thoughts come calling. Come in bad thoughts. Sit down. Let me get you a nice hot mug of tea. Do what you need to do. I will wait patiently until you tire of me. Godspeed on your travels. Goodbye.